Begging for forgiveness sucks ass! I guess I deserved it for being such a total bitch but I do miss her. Now I have to play the waiting game until she’s ready to talk to me again. Geeeeeze. I don’t get why I’m an ass to her when she’s always a sweetheart to me -.-” Honestly, it’s the physical part of me that longs for her presence. Loving and having someone, but not being able to touch them hurts like hell. Maybe that’s why I’m always a bitch to her…I’m afraid of getting hurt again and I know it’s not her fault and yet I take it out on her.
If only she was here, I would go out of my way to buy her a dozen roses and take her out to eat her favorite dish—tofu—which btw, I don’t like lol. She’s not a materialistic type of girl and it’s not about the money to her; it’s about the precious time together and that’s what I love. Then afterwards, maybe trick her into a scary movie so that there’s an excuse for me to hold her all night :P However, this day won’t come for a while, which also pisses me off but most of all, makes me sad.
I may play around with others, but it doesn’t compare to the moment I will spend my days and nights with her. I could already imagine those future precious moments.
I promise I’ll try a little harder to be patient, it’s just toooo hard eck >.<
Mahal kita <3